Three. Today.

She calls me Yiyi Janice within a few minutes I stepped into the house.
It's been a long time since she's been so warm to me.
I heard her tummy ain't feeling that well after just recovering from a flu bug and doesn't feel like eating, but she wants you tiao after seeing me munch on them.
I fed her and she ate two.
Gradually she started asking for more food and that makes her parents very happy.
She sat next to me and watched TV.
She felt sleepy, snuggled near... sucking her left thumb and playing with her blanket... dwindling my clanking necklace asking why I wear it.
It's all so heartwarming to have her this close and I just can't stop watching her.
She turns 3 today.
I whisper in her ears and asked if she's happy today, she nods her head.

Am really thankful that her parents allow me to be a part of her growing up really and that our relationships aren't strange.
This is the closest that I'll probably ever feel like a mom.
I know my gifts aren't exciting... Just wanna provide warmth and let the girls wear my love on and around them.

She made/drew me a birthday card.
See, I don't need birthday gifts.

She bear hugged me bidding me farewell.
Such loving gestures from her is enough to melt my heart.

It's only a dream

The month of August blasted past like a blur - I have had personal breakthroughs in my business but at the same time having a huge sense of abandonment coming over me... And somehow after watching Inception, I start to think that the world I live in is unreal. 人生真的是无止境的做梦吗？

Someone once said, "Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony." Some that I have I want not, and some that I have not I want. I guess the common life itself always reminds me that I am not congruent and thus not happy. Need a kick.